I am not one to be consistent with using or taking anything so was quite pleased with myself a while ago when I conscientiously smeared on a blob of natural progesterone cream morning and evening.

After a week I started feeling very anxious and actually started dabbing more on as increased anxiety is in the ‘list of symptoms relieved’ for that product but things were spiraling upwards at an ever increasing and alarming rate so I stopped.

Was certain once it was all out of my system I would be fine again but I wasn’t, I’m not, echoes and remembrances of panic attacks past and the thought of swirling in that mess again and the effort involved and time needed to get out just horrified me and has left a nasty resonant taste in my energy system.

So, what to do. I have tapped, and that helps, and I am EmoTrancing the bad feelings when they get out of hand, but I want to get to grips with the underlying feeling that my threshold of tolerance has been reduced a zillion per cent by my hormones and I am startling very easily and am interested to know what is going on.

Have recently read how too much progesterone in the system can cause bad breathing which leads to hyperventilation and panic and anxiety symptoms so now take a very deep abdominal breath when I feel things getting out of control and this really helps.

Heard of a report that said stressed out women have lower levels of oestrogen in their bodies, which makes sense, and also leads to the problems that messing with the delicate balance of hormones has on the body, emotions and mind, so getting back into regular meditation practice seems a sensible thing to do.

Also noticed that chocolate brings on an enormous hot flush about 15 minutes after eating some so am cutting back on that for now, along with coffee, I drink too much, so am sipping weak Darjeeling tea with a drop of rose water whenever I can remember which is very soothing and if I am good and do that for most of the day I do feel a lot better next day.

Have decided to stop fretting about my sleep, used EFT for that, because my sleep patterns are really only a symptom of all this and will sort themselves out eventually.

Must tap on not worrying about getting into bad habits which I’ll be left with when all this has passed…